Missing u hurts

My feelings for you were genuine. But I wasn't looking for someone who could save me. If the things you did for me was what you thought was best, well darling, it wasn't.

 If I needed help, I'd ask.

 The things that are happening in my life aren't things that you would or you could understand. 

 But you were always there for me. Maybe that's why it's killing me now. I needed someone who could let me be. Someone who knows I'm difficult and won't change that. 

 It's been five days now.

 I miss you.

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