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rough day yesterday. everything wasn't in place. can't rly figure out what i'm feeling right now. at the same time i put pressure on my colleagues & i'm sorry. didn't sleep well last night. was up for a few hours thinking how to settle certain matters without putting pressure on them. being in the position i am right now clearly made me realized what Ameere & Zhengyi went through when they had me as their very own promoter. for the very first time i feel like crying myself out bcs i'm thinking too much.. i thought by going away for awhile, these things would be off my mind but it's following me everywhere i go. can't help it. i want everything to be perfect. so perfection i will find. i miss you, grandma. everything you used to say keeps playing in my head. i won't forget a single word. i admire how strong of a person you were when you were going through tough times. i wanna be just like you. you taught mummy well. thank you Allah for giv...