Sorry
i'm sorry for pushing you away. it's the only way i deal with myself. i've been hurt way too many times before that now i leave before anyone leaves me. once someone is capable of making me smile every morning & every night, i will make sure i back the fuck off. it's just me. you're not the problem. just hope you know, i'm getting use to being alone now. i don't think i need a guy or a close friend to feel complete. i don't think such things exist anymore. if you've been left alone, blamed at when you've been trying so hard to be perfect for that somebody, you'll understand why i'm doing this.