angels dont give up on me today

My feelings for you were genuine. But I wasn't looking for someone who could save me. If the things you did for me was what you thought was best, well darling, it wasn't. If I needed help, I'd ask. The things that are happening in my life aren't things that you would or you could understand.  But you were always there for me. Maybe that's why it's killing me now. I needed someone who could let me be. Someone who knows I'm difficult and won't change that.  It's been five days now. I miss you.

Dear God, T he nicest, the most forgiving, the patient one, the most understanding, just everything I would want in a guy. But if he is not for me, I don't want to waste his time. It is hurting me as much as it's hurting him. Maybe he was right for me but I wasn't for him. To have someone who could put up with me, myself and I altogether isn't something that happens often in my life. Losing him is breaking me apart. But oh god if he is meant to be mine, let us meet once again when things are easier. When life isn't as messy as it is right now. When I'm able to treat him just the way that he deserves. Maybe more but nothing less.  And if he's not meant to be with me, give him someone who's emotionally stable. Someone who doesn't need him to understand things he couldn't understand. Give him someone who could give him love as much as he's willing to give her. Last but not least, give me the strength to see him with someone else. Lov...