Pissed
I don't understand why we have to do what we're doing. You were the one who said we should forgive & forget. Now you tell me if we're doing that.. I understood what you meant when you said you couldn't accept what she did but I've moved on & it doesn't bother me at all because I know I do not do things like that. I won't do anything to disappoint you, Mom. You should atleast be proud of that instead of holding grudges against someone who's family to all of us. I have so many things I wanna tell you about them but you're too busy hating on them that you don't realize they're wanting to meet you & talk to you. If you can't forgive them atleast pretend like you already did. Please...
It's frustrating when people put you in such a difficult position. You have to tolerate all the nonsense in between & pretend like everything's okay at the end of the day. I wasn't really planning to cut all ties with them. I mean, they're the only ones that was there when we had nothing at all. I'm not one to forget all the good things people have done just because they did something wrong after all that. Come on. If you really knew her like you said you did, you would freaking understand that she has been like that since forever & we can't do anything about it. Why do you have to drag the matter even further? I'm not trying to go against you but please Mom, you're better than this. Stop giving me excuses just because you wanna avoid them. & stop telling me that I do not understand & that I never would because I do. Very well. & if this is what I get for trying then I don't wanna try anymore.
Casper's sitting infront of me right now. Just staring at me. Maybe he's wondering what I'm doing or maybe he can sense that I'm typing in anger...or I might breakdown anytime soon. Hais, things changed alot. I wonder if any of these is gonna get better in time. I hope it would. I need my cousin. I won't cut ties with her just because our parents are afraid to face each other.
It's frustrating when people put you in such a difficult position. You have to tolerate all the nonsense in between & pretend like everything's okay at the end of the day. I wasn't really planning to cut all ties with them. I mean, they're the only ones that was there when we had nothing at all. I'm not one to forget all the good things people have done just because they did something wrong after all that. Come on. If you really knew her like you said you did, you would freaking understand that she has been like that since forever & we can't do anything about it. Why do you have to drag the matter even further? I'm not trying to go against you but please Mom, you're better than this. Stop giving me excuses just because you wanna avoid them. & stop telling me that I do not understand & that I never would because I do. Very well. & if this is what I get for trying then I don't wanna try anymore.
Casper's sitting infront of me right now. Just staring at me. Maybe he's wondering what I'm doing or maybe he can sense that I'm typing in anger...or I might breakdown anytime soon. Hais, things changed alot. I wonder if any of these is gonna get better in time. I hope it would. I need my cousin. I won't cut ties with her just because our parents are afraid to face each other.