Love you, Uncle
now that you're gone, everything's different. i knew what i had, i just didn't thought i'd lose you this fast. you were just like a Dad to me. you blow my phone up when it's only 7pm & you never stop reminding me why I shouldn't be home late. you will always make sure i had dinner before heading to bed. you'd stay up till 5am bcs that's the time i'll get home after every event. you were on my nerves almost all the time. i wasn't your child but you controlled my life & your presence usually suffocate me. you can hurt me with words that you called advises. i'd lock myself up in my room whenever i get home just so i won't look at you. who would have thought i'd miss all those stuffs now that you're no longer here. i came to realize my safety comes first even though you had your own children & my siblings. i guess i was pretty difficult for you to handle that you had to wait till i get home every night/morning just to make sure i'm safe. those words that hurt me would hit me real hard each time bad things happen. you didn't deliver the message clearly. you thought that by delivering it the hard way, it's gonna make you sound tough. well, thanks for everything. it upsets me that i didn't even get to say thank you. everything happened way too fast. you're silly, uncle. you're the only one that knows about my whereabouts yet you'd still question me about it. i miss having someone who cares. i miss having someone who's really protective over me. you taught me to take everything lightly bcs life's too short to stay mad at things or people. you were always there for me & my family. you never fail to make us laugh with your silly jokes. you're always smiling. you were happy. you were healthy. why did you leave? you could have at least tell me you were leaving. late grandma's no longer here & now you. i keep losing people who treats me like gold. i keep fighting for people who won't fight for me & ignore those who were there for me from the start. i only start to appreciate when they're gone. i'm a really bad person, right? sigh. i miss you, real bad. but i guess it's okay bcs i know you're gonna be fine over there. you're a really good person. good people go to heaven, right? my prayers goes to you, uncle. i'll look after your family, i promise. x