Letting go

it's frustrating to not be able to differentiate people who rly wants to be there for you & people who's there but don't rly care coz right now i feel like i'm about to blow up. not physically but emotionally. i've lost count of the nmbr of people i talked to about you. i guess when i didn't heed their advice to pack up & leave, they're alrdy saying i'm stupid bcs that's what i'd say if i were them. maybe i'm the huge problem. i've promised myself to change but it doesn't seem like i have, right? everything you do gets me mad. maybe bcs i know very well i might lose you to someone else. at times, i tell myself that if you wanna leave bcs of smeone else, go ahead. & she can keep you. but to know that i wasn't good enough to make you stay, will get me thinking why the hell did i even let my heart develop feelings for you. funny, isn't it? someone who does things that makes me mad, who gives me replies that drives me crazy & someone who doesn't & won't assure me that things will be fine is the person who made me fall for him. good or bad, i'd still choose him out of 9 other guys. i know these things need time. i'm giving you all the time you need. when you've finally figure things out, you can come back.